Tuesday night July 4th was an hour ago

I am frustrated. I have two skin things going on. One is on my nose. Warts? I applied some acne stuff, a sacylic acid mask thing. Didn't even touch it. In fact, it seems like there are more than before. I got really irritated. Mostly because also, down below I have a skin disease. Yes there! It's supposed to go away in 6 months, or up to a year. It's been a year. It's still there. The only alternatives are burning with acid, or cryogenicly freezing it. or duct tape? It's SO embarrassing. No to mention , it makes dating almost impossible. I don't have the money to get it done. If I do go, I have to get an excused absence from work. I've missed quite a few days already. I'm on like sort of probation. It sucks so bad, because I don't make enough to live. I'm SO angry at this point. I thought my anger would yield positive change, it just cripples me.
I'm in a band, I can't stand it. The guys are just rediculous. Very stressful and it all gets turned around like it's my fault. I auditioned for a band, I might have a new job, I just need it NOW!!!! I needed it yesterday, and the day before. Hell I needed it last month. I get nothing but stress.
I have'nt blogged in a bit either as you can see. I have a Bowie song stuck in my head, and I can't sleep. I have tomorrow off without pay. That REALLY pisses me off. At least I'll have a day off from stinky breath next to me. My life really fucking sucks. BUT compared to the past it's a little better. Or so I keep telling myself. IS IT REALLY though? I don't know any more. Great now I have the hiccups too. When will it all end? I haven't felt this irate and pissed in a long time. I feel a little better now.....I'm still pissed though